When I left Laredo <3

The best discovery that I would ever do in life would be to find out why do I worry so much for everything. My heart gets so tighten that it feels like it's rounded with a belt. I try so much to calm myself but it just doesn't stops. I want everything to be perfect, I don't wanna make trouble for anyone and in the end it never goes like planned. Then, it just gets worse.
Things went so fast without realizing it. When the end came, it felt like a dream that lasts only three seconds. And it WAS a dream, the biggest one ever realized in that seventeen years life.
The (un)wanted morning came, so fast. Everything was packed, ready to leave, but was I ready? I only new that I was really late for the airport and there came again that stupid feeling that is keeping my breath. Now all those thoughts pass through my mind, like it was the biggest boarding pass without any border patrol to check.
It's such a good feeling when you start living your dream like walking bare foot, without knowing that the end is gonna come faster than you realize. And for me, it already came. Time passes sooooo fast. I went at the airport and my parents were already waiting there. The plane was supposed to leave at 05:20 am and now it already has passed 04:40 am. We went to check our luggages and they found my name on the list, but not my parents. I started getting even more stressed out and of course the worker didn't show any interest to help us. So, unfortunately, I ended up to leave Laredo by myself, because my parents were going to catch the plane of 07:20 am. My plane was going to leave in five minutes when I started running to catch it. Why my fate was supposed to be like that? At least to have the chance to say goodbye and hug with my whole love my host family. I was running to pass faster and at the same time saying goodbye to my closest people that I had in Laredo. All my host family was there with grandma and Charlie. When I was leaving everyone was yelling goodbye to me. I felt so bad for my real parents. I felt like an unfaithful leaving them behind, but I had no other choice.
I ran all the way to the airplane and when I went inside I was the most famous passenger of the day. Everyone was watching at me and I could read on their foreheads saying: " just because of you I waited here two more minutes." But who cares, I didn't miss the plane and that's important. As I was the last passenger, I got to choose my seat and fortunately I got two seats free and had enough place for my guitar too.
The plane started moving and my heart started racing with it. I was alone when I came here and alone I'm leaving. But I have a whole great experience getting with me. As the plane was flying in top of Laredo, I was testing myself if I'm ready to say goodbye to that little city that gave me so much. The darkness was getting lighter and shiner with all the lights of the city of Laredo. As the plane was going, the lights were dissapearing and my host family, friends, rotarians, school, crushes, marching band, track and field, horseback riding and oow so many other things I was leaving behind. Tears started dropping through my face. So much in a day, so much in a year, so much in a seventeen year life.
I have chosen not a easy life for myself, so I need to get used of living and leaving, even though saying goodbye is what hurts me the most. But, I realize that life moves on and so do I! Sticking on a past dream may cause me to not live the present and lose my future.
But I still let myself cry, cry for every moment spent in all USA, no matter if it was a happy moment or a sad one, cuz I did what I wanted and I enjoyed it! I even more cry for the people, for the ones that opened their heart to me and made me feel great, and for the ones that chose to better keep the love for themselves, but lost so much by not knowing one more person in the world.

A day full of happenings, fun and lifetime memories =D I started the day in hurry, but anyways I missed the bus. My american dad sent me to school, and yea as always I went through the cafetoria. Outside was raining a wee bit, but I got fast inside straight to my first block. Not that I mind to get wet :) but my legs are just used to hurry, since I came here in US. Yea, I know I've changed a lot, just like I've said before I came here, a NEWLIFE sounds adventurous. I got to know the other part of me, the "LiveItAmericanWay" one.
But, anyways, I went inside the cafeteria, went all the way through and opened the other door, walked like 10 steps straight, turned on my left and all the way to the and of 200 wings hall way, there was my AP Biology class, room # 205. Today was the final exam, but I was exempted so I didn't need to take it. Well, then I sat with Caitty, Pau and Doris on the back of the class, and here was the fun :) I brought the flag from house and they signed it. I signed Pau's yearbook, with really true words, she's a nice person. Mrs. Cuellar also signed on my senior yearbook. Ok, so this block went too fast and on my AP Chem class Mr. Rose was absent again. But, never mind, we had a lot of fun. Me and Andrea had that silly thought that why only one Albert Einstein on the world? I mean, not that we are that smart, but we really can do that face and super cool hair that the BIG Einstein used to have. We got the goggles on and we messed up our hair on that "crazy style" :P We took some silly pictures, so now and on we are : Ronert Nushtein and Andrert Montalvtein. Pretty cool scientists, right? Good names to remember!
Ok, so that's almost how my school day was spent, getting the signatures on my flag, playing UNO with Ale, Na and Angel, doing the final on Government class and so on.
By the time the school was over, mom and dad have already arrived in New York and Fesi have waited for them at the airport. Tomorrow is the day, man!!! Owwwww, I'm finally gonna see them after like ten months.
After school I went to the office, Apple Bee Learning Center, to get ready for ballet dancing. That went really fast and after the practice Alex called me to ask if I still wanna go out. Yea, of course, and I was super hungry. Abby came with us too and we went to Wendy's. It was nice, talking and chilling after some busy days that I had ( OK girl, wait for tomorrow and all this week, the BUSY word is gonna come to you for real, huh).
Uraaaa, finally I came to the part, the one that I was waiting for. Wait and wait, wait and wait, this waiting has been very long. Actually, I've had that wish since middle school, and it always have been like: "One day, when I'll get 18..." Well, there are still like two months time to get eighteen, but I guess now I put that wish on my "Things to do before 18" list. But, anyways, I did it!!! The key word is : make a real tattoo =D
I did the design and we went to the store. The artist that was making the tattoos had tattoos all over his arms and two piercings on his mouth. I just wanted my tattoo done, so I gave him the design. It looked like he had a lot of experience in it, so I trusted and felt comfortable. The design that I did, is about my year here, and I did it to remember it for life! I did a T with a cowboy hat and a X like a heart. It's very little and it's on my spinal cord. My first tattoo, yeeeaaaa!
I even took a picture of the store. I can't forget that day ever, because I got from it something that it's going to be on me for life!
Wooow, I never realised, time is 2:10 am. I have school tomorrow and yeeeaaah I'm gonna leave school early to go and wait for Mom and Dad at the airport.
I'm flying from happiness!!!
Love y'all, TX I'm gonna miss You!

Maj 05, 2009

Dielli kishte lindur ore me pare, kur une vendosa te zgjohem nga shtrati. Nje dite tjeter pushimi, pa shkolle, cfare mrekullie.
S'kishin kaluar as njezet minuta, kur une dola nga dera e shtepise per te vrapuar. Edhe pse sot Hannah nuk erdhi per te vrapuar, perseri nuk u ndjeva vetem, sepse muzika nga iPodi me bente shoqeri. Sot mengjesi ishte me i fresket dhe 30 minutat vrapimi perreth lagjes se njohur Plantation kaluan shume shpejte.
Nje tush i shpejte me freskoi mjaft, perderisa jashte temperatura kishte filluar te ngritej, padyshim.
Se bashku me nenen amerikane dhe Trevor u nisem per ne Apple Bee Learning Center. Sot eshte dita e dyte qe po ndihmoj ne zyre te prinderve amerikan. Po me pelqen shume, e sidomos kur femijet e vegjel po me therrasin Teacher Rona.
Babai amerikan e kishte sjellur prapa nderteses rimorkion e kuajve, dhe ne kishim per ta pastruar. Ishte mjaft nxehte ne ate ore te mesdites, por prapeseprape pastrova mjaft, duke thene vet me vete se vetem sa humpi me shume kalori :P.
Pasi qe u kthyem nga HEB me mamin amerikane dhe me Hannah-n, me nje buqet torbash me ushqim per krejt javen, une dhe Hannah u beme gati per te shkuar ne pishine ne apartamentin e gjyshes, por, si dy dembelica qe dime te jemi ne ndonjehere, babai amerikan tha qe nuk mundemi te shkojme, sepse nuk e kemi pastruar krejt rimorkion. Keshtu qe, te deshperuara deri ne pike te fundit, une dhe Hannah, shkuam ne Apple Bee per ta pastruar te tere rimorkion. Posa arritem atje, Alex ishte duke dalur nga parkingu, dhe me pershendeti me dore nga vetura.
Dikund rreth ores 7:00 pm me ne fund e pastruam te gjithe rimorkion, i cili tani po shkelqen nga bardhesia, nga bukuria qe duart tona te arta ia japern :P. Kur u kthyem ne shtepi, mami amerikane e kishte pergatitur supen time me te preferuar, sic e kam keruar dje, keshtu qe i gjithe ai pastrim ia ka vlejte. Por, c'eshte me e mira, babai amerikan tha se neser une dhe Hannah mund te shkojme ne pishine, dhe e kemi lejen te porosisim pica per darke. Juhuuuu
Tash ora eshte 12:58 e une jam ende ketu ne laptopin tim te dashur duke shkruar ne ditar. Ne myspace jam duke folur me Juan dhe sapo me tregoi qe gjate diplomimit bendi do te luaj muzike, perderisa ata te na therrasin emrat te gjithe neve qe po diplomojme. Ika vec me e pershendet dhe po shkoj ne gjume se mu tani ora sapo shenoi 1:04 am.
Ju dua edhe me teper se nxehtesia e Laredos gjate veres, qe as termometri nuk e mate
(K)(L)

Pjese nga ditari

Vienna - New York - 6809 km (-30*C) (gjate udhetimit per ne New York, ne aeroplan)

Ne Kosove tani ora shenon 12:35 am. Une gjindem diku siper Europes, ne mes rresh qe duken si ortek bore. Jam mu prane dritares se 22-te te Jambo Jet-it. E pabesueshme, apo jo? Dhe, me e pabesueshmja eshte se tani mu kujtua qe eshte dashur t'i kushtoje me shume vemendje gjeografise, blla blla blla.

(Edhe pse udhetimi ka qene mjaft i gjate, nuk kam fjetur asnje moment. Gjate tere kohes kam ndegjuar muzike ne iPod, kam lexuar ose kam bere fotografi nga qielli. Por, dikur vendosa te shkruaj ne ditar e ta pershkruaj cdo detaj qe me rrethonte ne ato momente. Kur isha duke fluturuar dikund siper Frances, jam munduar te shiqoj se mos po e gjej lumin Rona, por ishte e pamundur. Pastaj mu kujtua gjeografia, se sa e rendesishme qenka :P.
Ne karigen afer meje ka qene i ulur nje djale, dikund i moshes 26 vjecare ndoshta. Kur aeroplani filloi te ngritej larte, presioni i ajrit ne krahet e aeroplanit bente te dukej sikur uji te derdhet nga siper kraheve, dhe ky djaloshi i mencur filloi te frikesohej e me pyeti mua: "Shiqooo, dicka po derdhet nga aeroplani. A eshte vaj, apo cka mundet te jete?!?!" Mua me kapi nje e qeshur brenda vetes, por u mundova te tregohem e sjellshme dhe ia shpjegova se cka ishte puna.
Pasi qe fillova te shkruaj e shkaravis ne ditar, kaltersia e oqeanit m'i morri syte dhe e lash lapsin per ta shiquar ate bukuri nga lartesia. Gjate gjithe udhetimit kam qene e obsesionuar me oqeanin, perderisa e pash nje pjese toke, afer New Yorkit. Ishte Long Island...)

Letra e Rines

Letër lamtumirëse nga Rina Vuqetaj "
Prej një shkëndije të vogël në një flakë që do marrë dhenë"
Këta ishin hapat e ëndrrës sime
është harta që më tregoi ku dua t'jem.
një ëndërr që mbolli një dëshirë t'madhe
një dëshirë që u rrit brenda shpirtit tim
që u ushqye me vullnet pa kufi faree
që tani kërkon realizim.
E sot, më duket se shoh veten
duke trokitur shtigjeve të jetës,
e dyerve të botës pa asnjë frikë
sepse e kam dëgjuar tashmë zërin e t'vërtetës.
e ai thotë se një pjesë e realizimittë ëndrrës sime është në Amerikë.
Ndaj do shkoj...Edhepse është një rrugë e panjohur për mua
edhepse e di që s'do ta kem lehtë
gjithashtu e di që do realizoj atë që dua
sepse ashtu sic une dua, duhet të jetë.
Edhepse e di që shpesh do ndjej mall
dhe shpesh do të dua t'jem këtu
e di gjithashtu që do i ruaj kujtimet si margaritarë
dhe do i shpalos sa herë dua t'jem me ju!
Dhe ja, do gjej zgjidhjen e drejtë
në valigjet e mia s'do ketë vend për frikë fare
sepse rrota e jetës sillet shumë shpejt
edhe kur do kthehem, do kthehem fitimtare
sepse gjithçkaje rreth meje unë i jap jetë.
E atje do jetoj me kujtime t'bukura
me kujtimin e aq shumë njerëzve që ndjejnë mall për mua
me kujtimin e urimeve të panumërtatë njerëzve që më rrethojne e që i dua.
E sot, shumë e gëzuar ndjehem
sepse po shkoj drejt rrugës së shkruar të fatit tim
dhe e di që ditën kur do kthehem
shumë njerëz do më presin me padurim.

Nga Rina Vucetaj për muaaa(Rina, t'duuuaaah)

Ku po fshihet engjulli?

"Be careful what you wish for, cuz you might get it all!"

Me vetem 36 shkronja jane mbushur miliona letra, e miliona ditare jane munduar te marrin jete nga fjalet e pershkruara ne ta. Por, eshte e pamundur ta kthesh nje jete ne fjale, sado qe te mundohesh ta pershkruash cdo moment me aq entuziazem, fleta nuk merr ere te ngjarjes, emocioni nuk eshte i njejte kur e lexon. Cdo moment eshte unik dhe shume kush mundohet ti ruaj ato kujtime duke i mbyllur ato ne ramin e nje pikture apo ne nje ditar si ky.
Nje gje eshte e sigurte, jeta eshte nje pallat mistik, me plot koridore, e dyer ende te pahapura, brenda te cilave drita te verbon nga shkelqimi, por ne nuk e shohim deri sa te rrezikojme ta hapim ate dere. E kur e fitojme sfiden kunder frikes dhe vendosim ta zbulojme se cka fshihet pas asaj dere, perpara syve na shfaqet pamja me e bukur qe ndonjehere ne jete e kemi pare. Dhe ne besojme se kjo eshte me e bukura dhe nuk ekziston asgje me e mire se ajo, sepse eshte e pamundur te besosh qe jeta eshte me e bukur se kaq. Por, nese vendosim te luftojme me friken deri ne betejen e fundit, e zbulojme se ne e kemi pare vetem nje pjese shume te vogel te se bukures. Se jeta i kalon kufijte e imagjinates.
E njejta gje po me ndodh edhe mua. Perderisa para nje kohe thoja se kjo ka qene dita me e mire ne jeten time, tashme nuk po i besoj ketyre fjaleve, se e nesermja ndodh te jete me e bukur.
Nje jave tjeter hareje, shoqerimi e emocioni. Me klubin Sister Cities isha nga dita e merkure deri te shtunen, por ato ngjarje jane te panumerueshme. Perderisa te merkuren mbrema e kam kaluar me studentat e tjere ne pishine te hapur, por me uje te ngrohte, te enjten kemi qene ne Texas A&M International University. Aty kam qene teper e nderuar perderisa e kane vendosur flamurin kuq e zi ne salle, ne mes te te gjithe atyre flamujve te botes.
Te premten kam munguar ne shkolle, por ia ka vlejte. Ne mengjes kemi qene ne tater dhe jemi takuar me te gjithe perfawesuesit e qytetit te Laredos dhe ambasadore nga California e New York-u. Une iu kam derguar flamurin tone te ri, dhe e kane vendosur ne salle se bashku me disa flamuj te tjere. Vetem ta shihja flamurin tone ne ate mes, dhe duke e ditur qe isha une faktore, me bente te emocionohem aq shume, por pastaj edhe e kan luajtur hymnin tone te ri te flamurit, dhe e gjithe salla kane qendruar ne kembe, si shenje respekti. Kjo ka qene me te vertete emocionuese, dhe eshte e vertete qe kur te jesh larg vendit tend behesh me patriote. Une vetem se kam filluar te behem patriote, e sidomos kur po e mendoj qe tash njerezit po mesojne me shume per vendin tone aq te vogel, por te rendesishem.
Pas kesaj ceremonie ne teater, njezet mxemes qe na kane zgjedhur, kemi pasur per ta luajtur nje pjese teatrale ne nje panair. Te gjithe jemi veshur me tesha kombetare te meksikes, dhe me pushke ne dore jemi futur brenda ku ka qene duke u mbajtur panairi, dhe kemi filluar te aktrojme si ne revolucionin meksikan. Ka qene shme interesante, e sidomos ta shihja veten ne ato tesha. Nje eksperience e re, si meksikane, e qe jam pershtatur "teper", nje meksikane e bardhe. Nga panairi kemi shkuar ne qender te qytetit per shopping e pastaj kemi shkuar ne nje salle te vallezimit. Aty kemi kaluar teeepeer mire. Pas te gjitha atyre lojerave, e sidomos lojerave me karta ( sandwich posaqerisht), e kemi pasur te ftuar nje DJ dhe kemi kenduar karaoki. Me ka ardhur momenti me e shfaq talentin aq te madh qe e kam per te kenduar. E kam marr mikrofonin ne dore dhe me disa shoke e shoqe te tjera e kam dridhur sallen me zerin tim kumbues. Por, e verteta qendron se askush nuk merzitej per ze te bukur, te gjithe donin vetem nje melodi per te vallezuar. Deri ne oret e vona te mbremjes jemi djersitur duke vallezuar e kenduar.
Te nesermen, e shtune, kam pasur SAT test. Pasi qe nje nate me pare kisha ra me fjetur ne 2:30 te mengjesit, ka qene e pamundur me e ndegju alarmin e telefonit ne oren 6 te mengjesit. Apo ndoshta edhe nuk ka cingerruar fare, pasi qe une nuk kam ndier asgje, deri ne momentin kur ne 7:45 ka ardhur babi amerikan me me zgjuar per me shku per test. Kur me ka treguar se sa eshte ora, kam fluturuar nga shtrati dhe si e cmendur kam filluar te behem gati per test, sepse ne 7:45 une vec eshte dasht me qene ne test. Duke shkuar rruges, duke vajtuar kam arrit ne United Higj School, ne shkollen kundershtare, Longhorns :P. Atje perseri duke vrapuar pa fryme deri sa kam arritur te hyrja, dhe disa arsimtare u mundonin te me qetesonin. Per test arrita me kohe dhe me ne fuuund e perfundova. Besoj dhe shpresooj qe kam punuar mire e per rezultate me duhet me prite shume gjate. Pas SAT kam shkuar me studentet e tjere per shopping ne shtepi te mallerave, pastaj ne shtepine e Alexis per tu nderuar e me ne fund kemi arritur ne Laredo Entertaiment Center, per te pare Motorcross. Shfaqje teper interesante me motora, me motoriste te cmendur qe benin akrobacione nga me te ndryshmet, duke fluturuar ne ajer e duke u rrotulluar. Por, pjesa me interesante ka qene kur ne fund une ia kam dale me u fotografuar me nje prej motoristave dhe ia kam marr nenshkrimin. Pas kesaj shfaqje kemi shkuar ne nje salle tjeter te vallezimit ku kemi pas muzike live nga nje grup i shkelqyer mariachi. Koha ka kaluar aq shpejte dhe si cdo fund, ka ardhur edhe momenti me u nda nga shumica e studenteve qe jetojne ne shtet tjeter, e qe ndoshta jeta nuk do te na sjelle nje shance te dyte per tu takuar. Por, te gjithe i premtuam njeri-tjetrit qe do te mbajme kontakte perseri.

Por, tash nje lajm tjeter i shkelqyer nga shkolla. Te merkuren ne oren e katert kam qene e ftuar ne menze te shkolles ne nje lloj si party, per shkak qe nuk e kam pasur asnje mungese ne shkolle dhe si shperblim qe e kam fituar. Aty kane qene edhe qindra studente te tjere, dhe kane pasur per te na shperndare disa dhurata. Ne nje kuti te madhe kane qene te vendosur emrat e te gjithe neve, dhe pas nje perzierje te miiire, nga nje emer dilte nga ajo kuti, per ta fituar nje dhurate. Une gati isha duke fjetur aty, kur e kam ndegjuar emrin tim, Rona Nushi. Woooow, fitova dicka, por cka nuk e di ende. Kur shkova per ta marre cmimin, e gjithe salla filluan per te bertitut, per "Exchange Student" gati VIP-in e shkolles:P. Pastaj e zbulova qe e kam fituar nje telefon te shtepise me anwer machine, per te luajtur iPod, me ore e sidomos me e rendesishmja per mua, edhe alarmin. Pastaj, nje fotografist me fotografoi me cmim, per ta bere nje poster per menze te shkolles. Pastaj me kane marre ne interviste per ta gjiruar nje reklame per t'i stimuluar nxenesit qe te mos mungojne ne shkolle. Pyetja qe ma kane bere ka qene keshtu: "Why is perfect attendence important for you?" Dhe une jam pergjigjur: "Perfect attendence is important for me, because I plan a better fututure for myself so I need to catch the lessons and be on step. Life has too many challenges, so I need to be educated to live a better life."

Nuk e di pse, por cdo dite po me kalon me bukur se tjetra, a po fshihet ndonje engjull prapa meje qe po me mbron e po me sjell fat, apo ndoshta eshte ndonje arsye tjeter prapa saj, une nuk e di. Cdo dite i falenderohem Zotit dhe te gjithe te tjereve fale te cileve une jame ketu, dhe lutem qe jeta te jete e drejte dhe tu sjelle me te mirat njerezve te cilet punojne dhe i meritojne.

Ju duaaaaaaaaaaaaa, dhe mos harroni qe ne nje pjese krejt tjeter te botes gjindet nje zemer e vogel qe rrah per juve, dhe ju jeni frymezimi me i madh i saj.

Life is so beautiful

Have you ever woke up in morning and all the day was like your worst day in life ever, but in the night something happens just like abra ka dabra and it makes you feel like a bird flying in an open sky. Yeah, whatever, it happened to me today. In the morning I was like rushing and and running outside to get the bus for school. I had tons of bags with me, with the folders and other staff for school, clothes to change and the bluzer of Rotary. My head in side was like in any Mall where you hear ppl talking all over the place without any order. I went to sleep last night at 2:00 am and I wasn't that sober to think for everything I needed. When I arrived in school, I didn't know what to do first: to go in library and finish workong on presentation, ginish my chemskill home work or learn for economics test. I had only 15 minutes left for the first block, so I decided to go in library and finish the presentation. Anyway, time flew out and I couldn't finish all of it. I ran agaain to the 200 wings in the AP Bio class. My teacher didn't came today and I was exempted for todays test, because I have to take it in Monday, but I had to finish the objectives, because tomorrow I won't go in school. There was a loooot of work and I didn't finish all of it, so when I went in second block I finished it and turned it in. In AP Chem I had test, and I wanted to cry man, errrrrrrrrrr, because we had another test in internet due last night, and I finished almost all of it like about three days ago, but I only left two questions to submit the other day and I forgot to do so. Today I remembered it but it was too late. I had an average of only 64 and I was suuuuuper mad, because I'm working too hard for chemistry and I'm staying all night long to make all the work, and in the end for a little stupid mistake I got a lower average. Anyway, I have a 91.1 average and my friends said that they're not gonna count that much the test that I got 64. Ok, the bell rang again and than I ran out of the school building to go the the portables, in the Health class. This one was better, but I had to learn for Economics test whenever I had a free minute. In 4th block I went in Economics test and I finished the test with 100 questions, but it looked easy. Finally the school day has ended and now we had to go with City Sisters in Tamiu. Firs we went to Alexis house to change, and it was an awesome house, with swiming pool and everything. She had a dog named Lucky and it was super sweet. After Alexis house, we arrived in TAMIU - Texas A&M International University and here comes the surprise. We went inside to the huge Confernce Room and it was all circled with flags of all over the world. And, guess what? There never was any Albanian flag, until I arrived there. They ordered to make the flag and when I arrived, it was already there, shining in between other world's countries flags. I was so excited, in that point that I was jumping. I was so honored, because now our national flag is in a texasian famous university and now people are learning everyday something more about that little but too important country. I took a lot of pictures and I felt so proud of my country and that I got to do it, to bring the flag in USA and put it in such important place for a loooong time. In that conference, me and Lucas from Germany made like a presentation for our country and they asked us a lot of questions. In the end they said that they learned a lot for our countries, for such a shoert time. And, that's not all. Tomorrow I'm gonna go in the Civic Center to practise, because in Suterday I'm gonna play in theater for the Mexican Revolution. We're gonna wear Mexican Traditional clothes, they're gonna fix our hair and everything, and we're gonna et the guns and act like in Mexican Revolution. Ther're gonna record us and it's gonna be like a short documentary movie also.
I'm super happy and today I learned something more, that you realize how beautiful is life in the moments when you never expect.


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Sa shume kujtime...

Ka kaluar kohe e gjate qe kur te kam shkruar per here te fundit, Ditar i dashur. Por, koha ecen e bashk me te edhe une po mundohem vrap pas saj te arrij ne cakun e qellimit tim. Por, rruga eshte shume e gjate dhe aty po kaloj ne pjese mjaft interesante, per here te pare ne jete. E them perseri dhe do ta them me mija here se ky eshte viti me i mire i jetes sime. Po ta kisha enderruar me pare, ne mengjes do te qeshja me vete se sa bukur di te imagjinoj. Por, tani kjo eshte e verteta dhe ndihem krenare qe une jam ajo qe po e perjetoj.
Krishtlindje - fjale mjaft e njohur por kurre e perjetuar. Dhjetor 2009, mjaft ngrohte per stinen e dimrit. Perderisa me te dashurit e mi ne Kosove po e pastronin boren nga vetura, une isha ne rrugetim per ne Louisiana, me nje maic te thjeshte pranvere. Nente oret e rruges kane kaluar mjaft shpejte, duke shiquar filma ne ekranin e vogel te xhipit. Ne Louisiana e kam takuar familjen e nenes amerikane, farmere shume mikeprites.
Mengjesin e krishtlindjes te gjithe jemi zgjuar me heret se zakonisht. Qellojani pse? Nje mal me dhurata ka qene duke n'a pritur perreth bredhit te stolisur. Une menjehere e gjeta pjesen me emrin tim, por si te kishin gabuar emrin, une kisha me shume dhurata nga qe e kisha pritur. Duke na filmuar nena ameriane, te gjithe i hapem dhuratat tona, duke i shqyer mbeshtjellesat pa menduar mundin e "Babadimrit" per ti zbukuruar ato. Dhurata e pare qe e hapa une, ishte me e madhja, me e shumepritura, e dashuraaa gitare elektrike. Kur e hapa qanten e gitares, nje woooow te madhe e kam leshuar ne krejt dhomen. Aq shume e kam dashur nje gitare elektrike, dhe ja ku eshte. Nje xhemper me ngyren time te preferuar, kaltert, fshihej brenda kutise tjeter. Kemisha e kaubojsave, tesha te tjera, kapuci, qanta iRock, iTunes gift cards, album fotografish, iDog-u e shume dhurata te tjera ishin paketuar vetem per mua, nga mbare familja ime amerikane. Por, si dhurate tjeter, ekstra me e mire, ma kane dhene mundesine me kaleru ne fermen e tyre. Sa e lumtur kame qene ate dite. Me ne fund e gjeta nje pasion te ri, kalerimin, pasi qe alpinizmi po me mungon tepeeer. Kjo ishte krishtlindja ime e pare e festuar, ndoshta edhe e fundit, por ato kujtime mbesin brenda meje pergjithmone.
Pas shume pak ditesh erdhi edhe Viti i Ri. Shtatembedhjete here e kam festuar vitin e ri, por ky ka qene me i cuditshmi. Pa leqenik, pa pogaqe, pa sallat ruse, pa muzike popullore, e sidomos pa boren e ngricen e Europes. Ne mbremje kemi qene ne lojen e hokejit, dhe si dhurate nga ekipi i Laredos, e kemi fituar ndeshjen. Ne fund te lojes, ka qene nje ceremoni e shkurte, por mjaft interesante. Ne fushen e hokejit i kane vendosur fishekzjarret te cilat shperthenin ne baze te muzikes. Nje video tjeter i ka shoqeruar ne ekranin e madh.
Pas atmosferes se ngrohte ne fushen e akullt, jemi kthyer ne shtepi per ta vazhduar festen. Pas shtepise e kemi ndezur nje zjarr te vogel, dhe kemi shperthyer fishekzjare. Ora 12:00 erdhi shume shpejte, por jo aq e zhurmshme si ne Kosove. Babai amerikan e mbante ne dore nje kuti te mbushur perplot me cent. Kjo ishte nje ceremoni vetem e familjes Medina, qe cdo vit i gjuanin parate ne ajer dhe secili prej femijeve mundohej te mbledhe me shume pare. Pasi qe une kete vit jam pjese e familjes se tyre, e pata nderin t'i mbledh centet e vitit te ri.
Nata ka qene mjaft e zakonshme dhe une iu tregova familjes se si e festojme ne Vitin e Ri ne familjen time. Ata me paralajmeruan qe festa e vertet ishte ne ferme te nesermen. Dhe ashtu ishte. Pasi e kemi ngrene dreken e Vitit te Ri, jemi nisur per ne ferme. E kemi blere nje kuti perplot fishekzjarre dhe secili prej nesh kemi shperthyer fishekzjarre nga me te ndryshmet. Kemi pas momente mjaft qesharake me qenin, Shadow, pastaj kr fishekzjarret kane flutruar ne drejtimin tone, dhe nena amerikane ka vrapuar me shpejte se te gjithe ne.
Keto momente i kam gjiruar per t'i kujtuar ne vitet tjera qe do t'i festoj kush e di ku.
E tash, pas ketij rrefimi eshte koha per te fjetur, sepse neser me pret shkolla ne mengjes, me plot detyra per mua.